Hello, its me.
No, I’m not here to quote from Adele’s new song. I just missed the keyboard. I missed how soft each and every button felt. I missed the voice of my words through each and every paragraph. I just missed you. Now I have been doing some soul searching of mine. Not a lot, but a little to finally say that I’m moving on from something that was the past of me. A lot of us never understand just how hard it is to move on from something. Its kind of like an ice-cream cone for example. The first time you see it you give yourself the assumption that it is something that you just don’t want but need. You see how perfect it is to only imagine just how good it might taste.
The moment when you finally taste the ice cream you notice just how much you were lured in. Now not saying that the ice cream was a bad flavor or anything, but when you think about it. The shape of the ice cream itself is a lure, because the ice-cream doesn’t stay the same shape as it originally was. It shifts and shapes into a new figure. It’s so crazy just how much we can be fooled. Our emotions become invested. We crave things we will never get. Sure the ice-cream will taste good from the beginning, in the end when it melts its taste,and shape changes into something you never thought it could turn into.
I worry about us sometimes. I worry that maybe a few of us are a bit more fragile then we think we are. We put up this facade to make ourselves look like we can take the deception, the truth, the rejection.
One of the articles I will never forget is on this topic called LoveLust. Love lust itself is meant for failure itself. When we imagine our lives with others the first time we meet them. We see this future with an unexpected strange who we might indulge in. If we choose to interact with this lustful desire we also put ourselves at risk again for having our expectations broken and torn apart. It feels good to say that my LoveLusting days are completely over. We focus to much on what we could have with a person, how we might had been able to fix it, or at-least make amends. I had conversed with a friend the other day. Her relationship hadn’t been going well and she had explained to me that chemistry and time are what ties people together.
Always & Forever,