Reflecting on this entire year,I can honestly say i’ve changed so much. This year has been the story of my life. By learning to embrace life by holding onto it, and enjoying whats revolving around me. Life’s not a game, you can never reset it. Life’s about facing the challenges that you’ve had to live with from the beginning. So much has happened, that I hadn’t been realizing it was happening until after. Moving on to the trouble this year brought me.
After starting the new year on a good note.I moved to New Hampshire, where I started my first semester of college. There I met unimaginable people, with amazing goals and dreams. I never felt so youthful in a place before. After facing issues with the school near the end of summer, I decided to transfer to my local community college. Now, transferring from a four year college, to a community college was a hard idea to grasp. I already had things set in stone with my other school. I wasn’t as accepting in transferring, but I felt that it was for the best. I had many challenges this year, where I felt defeated at times. The thing about feeling defeated is that the feeling’s never permanent. You’re always able to change the outcome. My stress wasn’t just coming from my environmental change. My world was completely changing around me. I was drained, and exhausted. Pushing myself continuously, the thing is. Pushing yourself comes with some delay.But I can agree, that my over exhaustion later increased my creativity. Never push to hard in getting things the way you want them. Just let it all come naturally, and successfully.
I reassured myself throughout the year how important self-expression was. I accepted myself, and while I did,I couldn’t care less about what people thought. Times were beginning to be difficult, as I started having troubles in certain friendships, and relationships.After the trouble, I began entering into something I never expected.My first relationship.
Relationships For Idiots
The seriousness was so real this year. I never pictured myself dating in high school, high school love wasn’t the kind of love I wanted. College was the jackpot, where I indulged in my options. Beginning this year, I guess you can say I had a few flings. Thats what they just were though, flings.Nothing too serious, nor too fun. I wanted to keep things casual. Being myself, how could I even do that? Entering my new school, I was dating a guy long-distance. We enjoyed each others company, and dreamed about the future together. We communicated great, it was almost like I was talking to an old friend that had been very fond of me in the past. In the end, the connection we shared was vey lustful, until it ended. I observed myself the following weeks questioning “why it was over?”. Like people, relationships aren’t always permanent. After learning that I became myself again. I understood that sometimes the love that you want isn’t what you need. That people are capable of making us feel like everything fine , even after when we look at ourselves in the mirror. Love is a painkiller for the struggles we go through. So maybe we get ourselves in trouble because instead of thinking with our heads, we begin to use our hearts to find the solution to our issues.
My First Time
After the failure in my intimate connection, I promised myself that I would never rush into a relationship for anyone.Bringing me to my first relationship. My first serious relationship was like a rollercoaster. Full of unexpected fun, and surprises. I truly felt infinite. I had my friends on one corner, and someone I could call mine in the other. I smiled, and enjoyed the time I shared with my significant other. I learned so much, like how much a person can really care. Know that appreciation is not a chore, it should be something any person should want show towards their lover. So, take my advice, and know that being appreciated for the person that you are is important. If the guy you’re dating isn’t showing you appreciation, then move on happily.
Due to the gratifying compliments, and appreciation. My confidence and respect for myself increased. Its important to always know your worth. Without knowing how much my worth was, I don’t believe I would have moved on within the year so positive.
There so much to say, with so much more to write! Ive never had such an excited year of my life before. I thought my sweet 17s were something. The moment I went into my nasty 19s I grew into a person I’ve always wanted to be, witty, smart, and wise. With a touch of sailor moon glitter. This has been the year of growing, and learning to embrace who I am.I accomplished so much this year. From booking two NYFW gigs, to buying my first car! Ive never felt so accomplished. I saw the goals I wanted to achieve, and pushed hard to complete each goal. The moment you realize you are worth it, is the moment you’re able to push yourself farther then anywhere possible.So tell me…what was this year like for you?
Were you wise this year? Did you push yourself. Nothing more greater then striving for something, that gives us a reason to wake up in the morning. The amazingness of life is right outside the door, are you ready to hold on and never let go? Take my advice, and always write it down if you dream of it!
Where does the story go?!
Now, I’m looking into the future smiling brighter then ever. Waiting for what the future has ahold of me. It’s interesting just how so much happens within a year. Wether its love, a job, a trip, or a new friend. Theres always a surprise around the corner, waiting for you to open it. I have big goals for the year of 2017. I hope you’re able to explore with me, by my side.Taking on the adventure by hand.
So, tell me what you think about Tokyo?
P.S. I guess you’ll just have to wait.
Always & Forever,
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