Am I Okay?| Break-up’s
Young here, not so dandy. The truth is love hurts, but internal pain tortures the soul.In the end all break-ups hurt, but we always become stronger. Close your eyes, and think of this.
You open your eyes, and soak in the morning, from that night before. That night where you finally let go. You let go of your pain, your misery, and most of all the heartache. You wonder to yourself why they never saw your potential, your beauty, anything to stop them from giving you all that you wanted. After you come to your senses, but you don’t really come to your senses, you ask yourself “Am I okay?” throughout the entire day, maybe even month because where you were last night doesn’t make up for where you wish you could be, in their arms. In the end checking your cell phone throughout the day will never be enough, because everything is over. The love, the relationship, the connection. Just as you began opening your heart, your back to leaving it closed for what it feels like forever. Are you okay? I think im ready to tell the truth.
The truth is, I’m mad at myself for being genuine. Sometimes I wish I could just be as cold as the people I let into my life, but life isn’t always fun. Life is about truths, and reality. What I’ve learned from life is to never close my options, and to keep moving forward. Never let someone keep you from your true potential, and thats exactly what I did in the year 2016. I was so lost in myself, and love that I wasn’t able to be happy for myself or the person I was with. We would constantly fight, and make-up but its hard to fix someone who can’t deal with themselves.
The truth is, when you’re in a relationship love will always be rocky. You’ll want to give up, and sometimes even fight with who your with. Its important to always be centered with yourself, and your partner. If not things could always go the wrong way. Last year was the first time I had really given myself to someone.
It was like we were one, but when you’re involved with someone else, you don’t just think for you. Together you decide the places you’ll go, and the decision you’ll make together. I think at that time in my life, commitment like that wasn’t something I wanted completely. I felt free, and wanted to explore my freedom. Later after the relationship had ended, as we parted ways ill always take something from it. Just like anyone should in any life changing situation. Now as I age, I look for the lessons in my truths.
I’ve learned to stay open, but with my eyes wide open. Everyone isn’t your friend, life isn’t a game, and the choices you make are permanent. Like now, I’m finally learning to let go of certain unwanted habits and people. You should too! If someone you love isn’t loving you the way you deserve their love, then run away and never look back. This month has been a world-wind of truths, and lessons.
After giving love another shot, I felt thrilled and polished. I thought I could finally give myself to someone else, just to have them mock me throughout the journey. So I took one of my lessons from the past and added it to this one. Ending our relationship, and further attachment together. Feeling a bit emotionless, handling a break-up now feels easier to deal with.I might just have a recovery potion for it!
Love hurts no matter where you’re at, within any point of the relationship it could go wrong. I know for me, recovering from a break-up can sometimes feel so endless, but magnificent at the same time! I know it might sound weird, but I get the biggest boost of inspiration ever whenever my hearts broken. Continuing with caution, I don’t promote injuring your heart for anything! Even at our lowest points, we still risk falling deeper into the midsts of depression. So never push yourself to love someone who just doesn’t feel the same. This month I met a boy, oh how I can hate boys.
He had taken me on this adventure that captured me by a complete surprise. Not trying to catch feelings was the hardest part of this journey, because it had come out of nowhere! Next thing I knew, I had made my way into his car on a fully moonlit night. The chemistry was amazing, and I completely felt hooked. The date was the best one id ever been on. So when day’s had later went by we made it official. Later on, I found out our life in no way was compatible. Logically speaking, we weren’t going to work out. So I made the move to end it before my feelings escalated even more.
My Break-up Recovery Potion
Now in need of the secret antidote to heart-break. In the end, I always catch myself doing this constant routine for every break-up :
- Listen to positive music
- Eat foods that make you feel good.
- Watch all the love stories you wish to binge watch.
- Consult a friend, and ask for advice.
- Wear something that boosts your spirit.
- SELF-EXPRESSING! Feel powerful!
- Get out, and go outside.
- Go Running, jogging, walking, etc.
- Play Video games
- Do yoga
Each twelve of these options always help me feel better, when I’m recovering from a break-up or loss of a certain relationship. I recommend adding five of these various options not to just boost your happiness, but lower your stress. Nothing’s worse then mending a broken heart. So pick yourself up and smile!
Overall,I see myself in the near future not just smiling more, but also have positivity radiate from all around me. With the help of friends and family, I can guarantee my happiness. Big things are approaching me, and I think I’m ready to explore this unkindly world. As we all should be. Every human in the end deserves love, and happiness. So if you haven’t found the person to make your heart skip a beat, find a reason for you to skip the city near you.
Find your source, to a happiness greater then love.
If no one tells you they love you, I do.
This Weeks song goes to Frankie Cosmos in Fool. The perfect song for recovering from a break-up.
Always & Forever,